Taking Responsibility For Myself

This year God has been showing me myself. I admit this has not been pleasant at all but I committed this year to personal growth and the destruction of Christianease in my personal life. I look back and see my insecurity, indecision and immaturity and wish I could change some bad "pride" choices. I ran from what God wanted and went into something else that I had no business doing. In the midst of that He still moved in my life and brought clarity to the vision he gave me at ten and His plan for my life. I find myself stripped and broken and now He's building and I'm just obeying. I really chose to be transparent with a select few and they are my close friend until today but I also put a facade up concerning others. Well it cost me... everything. Let's be honest (since this is about me anyway) I became what I detested and instead of manning up I just rode it out to save face. Big mistake. Things fell apart like The Roots and I ended up in the mountain like Moses... literally. (West Virginia) This is when God showed me I was pushing people away because I wouldn't deal with all the hurt from my life and I refused to let people in my life. Having prayer every night up there was what I needed. Then God told me to come back home and start facing the things I ran from and to start doing what I'm supposed to do. You see from the first time God told me what I was called to do i ran. I wanted no parts of it. I realize now that was the cause of my frustration. Anything that was drawing me that way i tried to sabotage an say things i never meant and said well that can't happen now. Duh, you can't beat God. I must have been entertainment from the throne. Basically long story short guess where I'm back at. Exactly. I'm not the same religious, fearful person i was 2-3 years ago and i know it's just the beginning but it all started by taking responsibility and not letting what people think, say or do effect my life. We all have things we regret. But to quote myself, "Forgive and move on word is bond/ you ain't the only one who's had tough like Cheech and Chong". I have learned when you release forgiveness you receive forgiveness. It's like my relationship with my father, we can't go back and change the past but we can build now for a brighter future. -Selah

Are We Too Immersed in the Culture To Help It?

One thing I always admired about Jesus was going against the flow of the stagnate religious environment without forgetting to reach out to the hearts of man. There was a delicate balance of being where the sinner was to reach out to then and he going away at times to stay focused with God. As I get closer to him I still get excited about sports, tech, gaming, music and other things I loved growing up and he gifted me in but it doesn't hold the place of importance in my heart as it once did. I had a flashback though when I overreacted and unfriended someone when the Jets lost to the Colts. How could I let something like that take control of me so easy? There are moments where we either decide to what's right or ride the emotion in our hearts to justify and do what's not Biblical. Emotion and passion are great but put on the wrong things we may find disappointment or a false joy that after a few days doesn't even matter to our lives. We represent and stand for things based on what? We are taught and indoctrinated into things from childhood and accept them as fact and never question the impact on our lives. We loved to be entertained and kick back but never really evaluate what this is putting into us and mentoring us to be. There are things we would never do but watch and condone in our entertainment. Words and images are seeds. A seed is a seed. Jesus said his words are spirit and life. We have to assume the other words not of him will produce death. Why is it when we come to a place in out walk we can never take the next deep plunge? We get upset with people who want to do the right things. We dishonor order and unlike David we touch Saul God's anointed. Even though Saul was wrong as sin he had a Godly fear and a perspective of how God sees things and faith to know God would perform what he promised. When we ride trends , emotions, movements and other things without evaluating it through the mirror of the Word a desensitizing begins to occur in our lives. Our enemy is subtle and crafty. We need o remember that. He is a liar, thief and murderer. (He comes to steal, kill and destroy.) We have to be aware of His devices. These seeds are being sown into our lives whether we realize them or not. Do we want the harvest. America is harvesting seeds from the 60s and beyond right now. We need to check our lives and get honest so we can pluck these things out while they are small and not let it take root and be a stronghold in our lives.

At Some Point...

You realize a lot of stuff sounds good but has no "biblical" foundation.

The Bible clearly states, (2 Tim. 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16 But shun profaneand vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness."

But most people take the Word of another and rarely study or even read the Bible for themselves.

There are a lot of songs and sayings that sound good but seriously have no "Biblical" weight to them.

This may lead to a doctrine of man, religious practice or even a false doctrine which strengthen the grip of Christianease on the the church.

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