Monday, May 02, 2011

Is It Just Me?

A lot of times we don't know the things that hang us up until God reveals it to you. Many times people can tell you what's wrong with you but rarely ask the Holy Spirit how to approach you. I personally for years had trust issues and at the same time wanted to be trusted and trust worthy. Though I don't hold grudges i personally believe that trust is earned over time and not necessarily just given. What I hadn't realized were the "walls" I had built and how callous I had really become. I may have been right about diagnosing people and situations but the way I handled it most times were ungodly. Really my reaction was triggered by a wound that I never let God deal with and heal. Instead of yielding it to him I'd just redress it. I was putting a band aid on what needed major surgery. The choices I made and the things I was exposed to really had tainted my mindset. What didn't help was when I was getting myself right and starting to renew my mind and do the right things I ran into people "playing church" and it opened a deeper hurt. My whole life I just wanted to live and experience true Christianity. Not anyone's opinion from a pulpit or a game when you live a double life. I wanted a personal relationship when I get into the Word myself and let the Holy Spirit reveal Himself to me.  When I saw people honored people's opinions, messages and other things over God's Word and/or never really spent time in it that was a blow that I almost did not recover from. People wanting you to fit their "view" of Christianity or they will omit you from the "inner circle".  I mean if you disagree with someone's doctrine and they "label" you something don't expect a call or any contact again. There are many things said from the pulpit as scripture you can't find or when you do you realize it is taken out of context. There are also many trains of thought in denominations and churches which "color" the Word of God into what it's not. We like and dislike preachers but do we search for truth? What is our criteria for the truth. We can respect and learn from people but what is the final authority if it's not the Word of God? What keeps us from truth? Pride. We want to think we know. So and so taught me that so it can't be wrong. Did you check it out for yourself?  We need a relationship with God and a relationship with His Word. (Jesus is the Word made flesh according to John 1).

2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16 But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness. 17 And their word will eat as doth a canker: of whom is Hymenaeus and Philetus; 18 Who concerning the truth have erred, saying that the resurrection is past already; and overthrow the faith of some. 19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. 20 But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and of silver, but also of wood and of earth; and some to honour, and some to dishonour. 21 If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work. 22Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23 But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes. 24 And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient, 25 In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth; 26 And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will.


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