Saturday, November 05, 2011

Live Loved (Single)


Tanisha Renee Brown... you're welcome.

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

#10ThingsIFindAttractive

Things I posted on Twitter in no type of order.


 Somebody who will tell me the truth in love and not give me a pass when I try to avoid doing what's right. #YouCare


 Being a great communicator. Where there is open communication there is less room for assumption & misunderstanding.


 A beautiful spirit. You just feel God when you're around them. She walks with Him.


Humility. You know who you are in Christ and that speaks. Not self-centered trying to prove who you are.


When I see how a woman conducts herself and want my children to have character like that. #righteous #holy #true


Somebody who is who God created them to be and not trying to be what i want them to be. The password is completion



 Someone who loves and follows God passionately and un-apologetically. That fires me up. 

 Eyes. They are the gates to the soul.

Maturity. Every moment in feeling in life is not ideal. Sometimes we just have to go with the flow. I can be wrong

When I can have a discussion about the Word of God with someone and not be accused of preaching. They live it too.

Just some random thoughts I threw out there. I might make a more refined one in the future.... might. 

Saturday, October 29, 2011

People mistake dissertation for conversation



Dissertation a long formal talk or piece of writing (for a university degree etc).
1. (Social Science / Education) a written thesis, often based on original research, usually required for a higher degree2. a formal discourse
Conversation 
1. The spoken exchange of thoughts, opinions, and feelings; talk.
2. An informal discussion of a matter by representatives of governments, institutions, or organizations.



Commentary
You find out who wants to know your thoughts feelings and etc or who wants to impose their thought feelings etc. on you. Conversation reveals if a person is willing to grow or if they are settled in their ways.
"Change is the essence of maturation." 

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Some Random Thoughts...

Sometimes I wonder where my passion went. I used to fight. I used to love. I used to care. I started out in life a very verbal extrovert. (I am still extremely verbal.) Then something like today happens in church when you realize things you have been doing that you were ignorant were lowly taking away that all without your knowledge. You have been trained to think, replay and be sarcastic. It was a truth that rocked my world that i can't adequately explain but i must go in the Word of god and study for myself. After my Macbook died (or at least it's hard drive and I've been off the net unless I'm using somebody's computer or connected device) I have had time to think about me. I will like to say I scare myself. There are moment that I don't know what makes me click. I know this much my connection to Jesus and passion to fulfill what He has destined me to do fuels me. I know I don't want to settle for mediocre Christianity diluted by opinion, tradition and culture. I know I keep myself guarded emotionally unless you are close to me. All I've ever wanted is to live out what everyone says a Christian should be. I've been in ministry since my teens and have worked full time ministry most of my life in churches big and small. I've seen things I love and I hated. Now I realize I've been responding to these things in the wrong way. Even what I think is right must be scrapped if it doesn't line up with what God wants. He wants me to bless and not curse, build and not break and to have mercy and not judge. My mouth has been my biggest enemy. James talks about blessing and cursing. We bless God and curse men who are made in His likeness who Jesus has died for. Have I lost my compassion for the lost in my safe church setting. Do I see my contact with a lost soul as an opportunity to lead them to eternity? Have I gotten too involved with politics of this world, ministry or classicism and been blind to see the purpose of this dispensation of grace. Am I like the Pharisees who wanted to stone the woman Jesus saved? Jesus blood and sacrifice wiped and continues to wipe the slate clean for me. Am I like the man who was forgiven a great debt and hold a small one toward others? Have I become what I despised? We all have to look into the mirror of the Word of God ourselves. Our uniqueness God has given us also means we all don't struggle with the same things. I want to be a balm to the broken not another stone of accusation. I sit here opening the mirror God has given us. His Word.

Thursday, October 06, 2011

Jason Upton's Testimony (at The Ramp)

That Awkward Moment in your life you realize people just don't do the right thing just because it's right. (Sadly it still happens to me.)

I guess I stopped lying to my mom around the age of 16. She rewarded me for telling the truth and punished me more severely when i lied. I guess that's when i started getting honest. Now that doesn't mean I all together stopped lying at that time but she laid the ground work for it. I remember being a young department head and misusing our battery supply for the wireless mics and I straight told the Assistant Pastor the truth of our negligence but already had a solution in place. Another staff member was like, " i couldn't just come out and tell the truth like that. I didn't respond but it really struck me as odd. I thought being more like Jesus the closer we got to Him was the goal. Many times I've been punished and cut off for making the move that takes integrity. Christianity is not a business or a livelihood to me. It's my life. Don't get me wrong as leaders you will have to make hard decisions that you may not agree with and do tough things but it should be according to the Word of God and not opinion, society or anything else. Integrity and character go a long way when you meet the people God sends into your life. it make the others separate themselves from you. Everyone cares to a point. But the compassion you have that Christ puts in your heart with easily surpass that. The selfish nature of sin and this world system goes against that. When you let it seep into the church this feeling of disappointment start to get widespread and is a seed to apathy. People are looking for the example of Christ in our lives. They want something different. We can't afford to misrepresent Christ when we get a chance to minister to the lost and backslider. By living Christianity and not only demonstrating it in times of connivence we give people the opportunity to see the tangible difference.

Acts 1:8 "But ye shall receive power, after that the Holy Ghost is come upon you: and ye shall be witnesses unto me both in Jerusalem, and in all Judaea, and in Samaria, and unto the uttermost part of the earth." -Jesus

Friday, September 23, 2011

Just a late night thought...

Sometimes words are not adequate to explain how you feel and what you're going through. Then you look at what you don't have in your life thinking it change it. The truth is that only true peace from God can comfort at these times no matter how you sugarcoat it. We all go through things no matter what we believe.

The Fear of Man

Thursday, September 22, 2011

You Can't Change The Past...



... or people's response to it. Whatever you've done good or bad in now etched in time. What you can do is learn from it for the time you have ahead of you ready to be shaped by your choices and actions.


I've always tried to be truthful. I know my flaws. At times I have defended them well.
The worst times in my life is when I lied to myself. I thought I was telling the truth. In fact as far as I knew I was but my heart later revealed it was a lie.


It was like being exposed on Maury. People conform. I never have. I probably never will.
People really have no idea what God has really called me to do. The first person who knew correctly without me telling them is my current Pastor. I was shocked that it was correct and not an evaluation of what it appears I should be doing because of my talents.


Honestly I knew that this is the place where I begin to prepare. I am rough around the edges but now I'm really heading toward my purpose. Not the one everyone tries to tell me about but the one God showed me at the age of ten in a vision. 

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Psalms 23 (4 Translations)


(KJV)
1 THE LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name' sake. 4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. 5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house oF THE LORD for ever.

(GWT)
1 The LORD is my shepherd. I am never in need. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside peaceful waters. 3 He renews my soul. He guides me along the paths of righteousness for the sake of his name. 4 Even though I walk through the dark valley of death, because you are with me, I fear no harm. Your rod and your staff give me courage. 5 You prepare a banquet for me while my enemies watch. You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows. 6 Certainly, goodness and mercy will stay close to me all the days of my life, and I will remain in the LORD's house for days without end.

(Darby)
1 A Psalm of David. Jehovah is my shepherd; I shall not want. 2 He maketh me to lie down in green pastures; he leadeth me beside still waters. 3 He restoreth my soul; he leadeth me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.4 Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me. 5Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies; thou hast anointed my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely, goodness and loving-kindness shall follow me all the days of my life; and I will dwell in the house of Jehovah for the length of the days.

(Rotherham)
1 A Melody of David. Yahweh, is my shepherd—I shall not want: 2 In pastures of tender grass, he maketh me lie down, Unto restful waters, he leadeth me; 3 My life, he restoreth, He guideth me in right paths, for the sake of his Name. 4 Yea, though I walk through a valley death-shadowed, I will fear no harm, for, thou, art with me, Thy rod and thy staff, they, comfort me. 5 Thou spreadest before me a table, in face of mine adversaries, Thou hast anointed, with oil, my head, My cup, hath run over. 6Surely, goodness and lovingkindness, will pursue me, all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of Yahweh, evermore.

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Time in the Word of God and Prayer: No Christian Can Grow Without It

Galatians 6: 7 Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. 8 For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting. 9 And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. 10 As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith. 


The big deception is that we are alright when we find deficiency in time in the Word of God and prayer. The truth is when we don't sow to our spiritual life the world is still continually planting seed for us to live by our senses and logic.

1 John 2:15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 16 For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 17 And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever. 

We will believe  what we read, see on TV and hear from people before we accept what the Word of God says. What is even more dangerous we will water down God's truth by mixing it with our own philosophy and personal beliefs making it of no effect. Self justification will always keep you from repentance. 

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.

By not sowing to your spirit and renewing your mind to the Word of God you set yourself up for any wind of doctrine. When you are not familiar with the Word of God anything that sounds close enough will sound acceptable. We need to be in the Word for ourselves and communicating with God in prayer so we know what He requires of us as His children. 

2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16 But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness.

There is no substitute in the Christian life for time in the Word of God and prayer.

Thursday, July 21, 2011

Would you rather play a team sport, or solo sport?

A team sport. I've had the ability but not the desire to work alone. There's more satisfaction for me by accomplishing things with others. It takes growth, patience and maturity.

Have questions? Ask me something.

what are you going to do to change the world?

Hopefully by positively effecting and teaching all those who I can by sharing and displaying the Life of God (Eternal Life) to everyone I possibly can.

Have questions? Ask me something.

Friday, July 08, 2011

Rain (A Poem)

It rains on the just and the unjust all the same
One in financial turmoil another wrapped in pain
A mother trying to figure out how she’s feeding her family today
While another deals with a spouse throwing their covenant away
A mocked child contemplates suicide to end the pain
While life makes another snap and go mentally insane
 Somewhere else a couple has lost their child
While somewhere else a child hasn’t seen their parent in a while
It rains on all of us despite what we say or believe
But change comes through Faith in Christ if we receive 

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Lord Who have YOU Chosen?

1 Samuel 16:‎6 When they came, he saw Eliab and thought, "Certainly, here in the LORD's presence is his anointed king." 7 But the LORD told Samuel, "Don't look at his appearance or how tall he is, because I have rejected him. God does not see as humans see. Humans look at outward appearances, but the LORD looks into the heart." (GWT)

How many times have I done it. Look at something in my limited understanding and made a decision without even thinking to ask God. Boldly say to somebody this is what God wanted with out even consulting Him. It may seem simple but this one little moment when Samuel went to anoint a new king for Israel shows me a lot of things. We think a certain way. All of us. We try to get others to think that way. We usually subconsciously apply that to what we do and how we are instructed by drawing conclusions. In that moment Samuel saw something that He perceived and derived that this must be the next king and God had to check him and laid down a nugget that will save you in any situation in your life.

We go through life choosing. Isn't life about choices? What is our criteria for choosing? The advantage God has is that He sees the end from the beginning. Sometimes I can't see five minutes from now. God will tell us something and that mindset of ours will try to immediately tell us why it won't work. If it doesn't do that it will try to interject our desire into God's instruction. When God tell us what to do or who he has chosen to be in our lives the unrenewed mind freaks because it can't put it all together. Why? It doesn't see the end from the beginning. It can't see the heart (where all the issues of life flow from) so it's trying to figure it out. What needs to happen is we have to renew our mind with the Word of God so it learns to agree with what God says. This is the process. We need to follow the command that God said and ignore the after thoughts that try to interpret the command and instruction. Faith is what we walk in because it pleases God.

What has God said? Who has He chosen? What does He say to believe? That what we need to target our hope to and wrap our faith around. The things that are worth it are rarely easy and you must stay the course to receive the promise. We must learn to receive what God wants for us because it the best and what we need. Our minds are limited to what we want.

-P.S.H.J. 

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Thursday, May 05, 2011

My New Music




Wednesday, May 04, 2011

What is your standard?

Your mindset? (What you think or feel.) Or God's Word? (Despite what you think or feel.) #Rhetorical 

Monday, May 02, 2011

Is It Just Me?

A lot of times we don't know the things that hang us up until God reveals it to you. Many times people can tell you what's wrong with you but rarely ask the Holy Spirit how to approach you. I personally for years had trust issues and at the same time wanted to be trusted and trust worthy. Though I don't hold grudges i personally believe that trust is earned over time and not necessarily just given. What I hadn't realized were the "walls" I had built and how callous I had really become. I may have been right about diagnosing people and situations but the way I handled it most times were ungodly. Really my reaction was triggered by a wound that I never let God deal with and heal. Instead of yielding it to him I'd just redress it. I was putting a band aid on what needed major surgery. The choices I made and the things I was exposed to really had tainted my mindset. What didn't help was when I was getting myself right and starting to renew my mind and do the right things I ran into people "playing church" and it opened a deeper hurt. My whole life I just wanted to live and experience true Christianity. Not anyone's opinion from a pulpit or a game when you live a double life. I wanted a personal relationship when I get into the Word myself and let the Holy Spirit reveal Himself to me.  When I saw people honored people's opinions, messages and other things over God's Word and/or never really spent time in it that was a blow that I almost did not recover from. People wanting you to fit their "view" of Christianity or they will omit you from the "inner circle".  I mean if you disagree with someone's doctrine and they "label" you something don't expect a call or any contact again. There are many things said from the pulpit as scripture you can't find or when you do you realize it is taken out of context. There are also many trains of thought in denominations and churches which "color" the Word of God into what it's not. We like and dislike preachers but do we search for truth? What is our criteria for the truth. We can respect and learn from people but what is the final authority if it's not the Word of God? What keeps us from truth? Pride. We want to think we know. So and so taught me that so it can't be wrong. Did you check it out for yourself?  We need a relationship with God and a relationship with His Word. (Jesus is the Word made flesh according to John 1).

2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth. 16 But shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness. 17 And their word will eat as doth a canker: of whom is Hymenaeus and Philetus; 18 Who concerning the truth have erred, saying that the resurrection is past already; and overthrow the faith of some. 19 Nevertheless the foundation of God standeth sure, having this seal, The Lord knoweth them that are his. And, Let every one that nameth the name of Christ depart from iniquity. 20 But in a great house there are not only vessels of gold and of silver, but also of wood and of earth; and some to honour, and some to dishonour. 21 If a man therefore purge himself from these, he shall be a vessel unto honour, sanctified, and meet for the master's use, and prepared unto every good work. 22Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 23 But foolish and unlearned questions avoid, knowing that they do gender strifes. 24 And the servant of the Lord must not strive; but be gentle unto all men, apt to teach, patient, 25 In meekness instructing those that oppose themselves; if God peradventure will give them repentance to the acknowledging of the truth; 26 And that they may recover themselves out of the snare of the devil, who are taken captive by him at his will.


Wednesday, April 27, 2011

A Little Reminder

I remember teaching in kindergarten as I gave instructions the kids. When something is new to someone or they never heard it it there is a hesitation. People are quicker to protect the stability their mindsets rather than to accept correction. If I continually tell you a lie you would eventually believe it because you hear it over and over. Faith in something comes by hearing it. The Bible says we should be hearing the Word of God.

2 Timothy 4:2 Preach the word; be instant in season, out of season; reprove, rebuke, exhort with all longsuffering and doctrine. 3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears; 4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables. 5 But watch thou in all things, endure afflictions, do the work of an evangelist, make full proof of thy ministry. 


The God's Word Translation says this:
2 Be ready to spread the word whether or not the time is right. Point out errors, warn people, and encourage them. Be very patient when you teach. 3 A time will come when people will not listen to accurate teachings. Instead, they will follow their own desires and surround themselves with teachers who tell them what they want to hear. 4 People will refuse to listen to the truth and turn to myths.5 But you must keep a clear head in everything. Endure suffering. Do the work of a missionary. Devote yourself completely to your work.


In teaching and leading you must be patient. Most people barely pick up a Bible themselves. I used to be one but no longer. This is very serious in the fact that spending time with God and His Word are very vital times that the Holy Spirit teaches and leads you. In times like these a personal relationship with God and His Word are not a luxury but a necessity. There are many things we put before the Word of God and I learned that the hard way in my life. When we reject things in the Bible because we haven't experienced them that births unbelief and we begin to "reason" and "interpret" the things of God instead of taking it as He has given it in his Word. Many times we will hear someone preached and not check the Word for ourself. If I had a dollar for every time I looked for a popular church saying and found out it wasn't in any translation of the Bible I would be a wealthy man. The Bible does give the minister the responsibility to preach the Word but it also gives every believer this responsibility.


2 Timothy 2:15 Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.


We must study ourselves and be in the Word for ourselves. People usually will accept something if they trust the source.  They will not check behind it and accept it as gospel. We don't have that luxury with the Word of God. 

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

What Are MY Desires and What Is HIS Will?


I know. Maybe that’s the problem. I know my knowledge has cost me some things over the years. My refusal to just settle is alive and well but what am I reaching for? Am I trying to force something God doesn’t want because I can’t let go? Perhaps maybe my life goals for ministry are the only things I have truly put before the Lord and I’m trying to hang on to everything else. Like I’ve said before when you truly love (someone, something or somewhere) you don’t stop loving you just move on realizing that won’t be a part of your life. I am not afraid anymore. I don’t mind detours or mistakes. I just don’t want to add my two cents to what God says because what He’s telling me I can’t see (with my eyes) yet but He knows my future. Yes when God says something I wrap what’s around me to it even though I know better. I don’t know who or what can enter my life tomorrow but I try to decipher what God means. I’m really trying to stop that. I know what He’s speaking. Instead of just taking it as it is and waiting on Him am I trying to interpret it? I need to release my stress of always wanting to know with this analytical and technical mind to childlike faith. I grew up without my father and I’m just learning how to to trust one. He is the heavenly one who is always trustworthy. Feel free to chime in if you want. I’m always open. 
-Shamik

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Monday, February 14, 2011

Always

"Jesus you're my everything...: